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Posted by: Evan on December 27, 2009

What a remarkable end to the wonderful holiday,
though I must admit I'm pretty disappointed that AIM has become obsolete for my peers.
what happened? I remember those magical days on AIM in high school, misread texts, stalking your crushes etc etc. I guess its all replaced by facebook and twitter so I'll back it. I just don't like the facebook chat, its weak. iChat kills, especially for videoing while traveling(which happens to be always) so I can't see some shitty webchat app taking over just yet.

Vaporware awards were also a big let down this year, perhaps its cause Duke Nukem really is dead and gone or maybe its just because there weren't very many exciting titles listed in there but either way i'm over it. I read a far more interesting article last night about the 10 most bizarre deaths and i think that'll be my new year end treat.

New Years plans? I dunno. I've never been a big fan, I don't hate on it, just don't get all geared up. To me, gimme like a Wagyu Filet & Lobster Tail and a good house party with close friends and I'm happy, don't need the giant rager at some wacky club with shitty parking and sloppy peeps. not sure what'll happen this year, I'll keep you posted.

Got a wonderful Ron English "Dandy Banana" screenprint (#1 of 100 actually) as well as his Abraham Obama sculpture(the black one!) what nice additions to the house. My black x-mas tree is coming down in a day or two along with the antenna's on my roof so as 09 closes lots of change.

I've been enjoying my solitude this week and its giving me time to rest up for what I can tell is going to be the most important year of my life. I guess it's like 2001 all over again where opportunity meets preparation. lets just hope the last decade will suffice as satisfactory ammo in the metaphorical pistol of being prepared. I don't wanna aim too high but I'm hoping to close the year with a grammy nomination, 3 top ten songs, a vma or two, & some more platinum records on my wall. I know I know, I could add more but I wanna keep it simple. Stay focused ya'allllllllllll

Here's what I can tell you for sure. In 2010 I'll be releasing "Welcome To The Blacklist Club", I'll be touring around the world and coming to play a show near YOU. You'll also finally get to see some amazing predictions come true and also learn what the fuck Etz are.

it's going to be fun! don't worry, the uStreams, Videos, and other shenanigans will be back in full force and won't STOP!

See you in 2010.
Evan

Posted by: Evan on December 20, 2009

Soda Sundays Thirty One.

It's like our little snowball just keeps getting bigger and bigger!
the "Merry Swiftmas" song has over 450k plays on YouTube, the official video which we launched earlier this week ALREADY has 40k views(even without a Taylor tweet), not to mention that we got love from CNN, AOL, Yahoo, E!, People, MTV, CMT, Bop, Popstar, & dozens of other newspapers from cities around the country. To top off the little cherry(or in this case I suppose metaphorically I should say the hat on our snowman) I found out "Merry Swiftmas" is the #59 country sound and #74 pop song in the US! Not a bad little joke song turned serious right?

Don't worry, if you're concerned that it'll goto my head relax. I think the small amount of attention this has gotten us has only made me even more self deprecating and aware that my job, this whole music business thing, etc.etc is just one big comedy! I'm just glad I find it funny because it could be really frustrating if not.

I'm on an airplane on my way back form Lansing MI where I played Snowstock last night. I slept 3 hours, left my house @ 4am, airport, flight, connection, flight, drive, dinner, interview, show, drive, hotel( 5 hrs sleep this time!) airport, flight, connection and flight(that's where we're currently). this week brings a number of final fun phone interviews, radio call ins, and whatever else we can drum up before my little x-mas jams shelf life officially expires for the year! Not a whole lot of x-mas songs getting played in january and on :-)

The show was awesome though, kids were singing all the words to Merry Swiftmas, Cheater Of The Year, and Boy Meets Girl which was fucking awesome because I only played those 3 songs(well, I was in and out of like 15 covers cause of my on stage adhd but it was fun!) Just watched "Tyson" on the plane which if you haven't seen I'd HIGHLY recommend. I always like Tyson for his antics but never realized that the guy is a fucking artist. He's his own worse enemy but he's a real live artist, the purest kind. On the flip side of movies on the fight out I watched "Talhotblonde" which I'd highly recommend you never see, and infact, don't even waste your time watching the trailer. Its the real life story murder/mystery that could be told in 10 minutes stretched over an hour and a half. Lemme help you. "Jessie" is actually "jessie's" mom. shocker(only you see it coming the whole way).

I'm listening to Hans Zimmer's "Roll Tide" quite possible the best instrumental 8 minutes of music around.

What else I got? hmm. x-mas parties, gift shopping(which for me is easy since I have almost no friends and those who I really love know I don't like gifts), and a week or solitude! Its my favorite time of the year. I usually spend dec 23-dec30th alone in my house reading by the fire, reflecting, writing journals, doing misc shit around the house and just centering myself for the year to come. I can't wait! this year feels oddly well smooth as it winds down (usually I'm cramming like 50 projects into the last week of the year) and I guess it feels good to see some hard work finally pay off. Its funny, I can see what 2010 has in store, I wont spoil it. but I'm very fucking excited.

Can't wait to hear your entries into the Swiftmas song contest! I missed the uStream due to weather on the east coast delaying our flight :-( but I made it up by giving away "Love/Hate" !! Dude, I love WBR, they kick ass, but god damn they'd kill me if they knew I'd given you guys 4 songs on the internet and told you to run wild with them! lucky for us major record labels have no way of figuring this kind of shit out because by the time they understand what we've done it'll be 6 months from now. :-) so have fun!!

"Rest Stop" by Matchbox 20 just came on my iTunes. great song. reminds me of my first traumatic heartbreak post high school when everything I knew and loved(all of it) went off to different places and phases and I stayed behind in Baltimore to pursue my dream. Also it marked the official end to that wonderful period of my life and everything it represented(enter "Best Years Of Our Lives")... It was the darkest most confusing lonely period of my life and I could barely make it minute to minute but I always knew it was all in the name of blind love and the pursuit of my art and hell, it feels really good to be where I am this minute. Don't worry, I don't think I've made it, I don't even consider myself successful yet, but I definitely now know I was and have always been on the right path and that is a really special thing. Anyway, for whatever its worth, if you can't see light at the end of the tunnel(whatever tunnel you may be in) I promise you if you don't give up that one day it'll all be clear and you'll be rewarded greatly for your diligence. You only lose if you quit, and that my friends is why next year like it or not, I'm taking over the fucking world.

I love you all,
Evan

Posted by: Evan on December 13, 2009

Soda Sunday Thirty

Wow, Soda Sundays turns old today....
oh well, good things this week.

I mean, for starters "Merry Swiftmas" at present is over 250k views on YouTube. The official video premiers tomorrow on AOL but then head over to our YouTube to check out the "uncensored version" immediately after! I can't explain how stoked I am on the success of the song, and how excited I am for you to see the video.

I've been waking up early as shit again to do radio phoners which has been more entertaining than ever due to me being pretty sick all week. I'm finally getting over it but have a 6am interview, 2pm acoustic performance, studio until 8 and then a holiday party. If I survive tomorrow I'll be a happy man.

Ironically the greatest gift I could have gotten for x-mas was having a song I wrote and threw together so quicky get all "viral" before year end!

Anyway, whats up this week? We got back the mixed "Best Years Of Our Lives" and its fucking AMAZING!! I can't wait to hear "Pumpkin Pie" which should be tomorrow, stay tuned via my twitter etc to know how whats going. "Starbucks Girl" went off for approval and we're putting some final pieces in place before I go record it with a badass(thats all I'm saying). It's gonna be big, I promise that.

Rest of the week is gonna be fun, finishing up some songs so we can get to you immediately next year and then also heading to Michigan on saturday to play an acoustic show! Thats what I get for opening my mouth on the air, they called me on my bullshit and now i'm flying...

Bought a mega millions ticket, this baby is potentially worth 111 million. If i win I don't think you'll get your soda sunday next week(although I'll be back soon enough). haha. Truth is, friend asked me what I'd do if I won and I said "what I do now" Thats fucking beautiful. I really hope you can all make choices and work hard enough to get to that place in your life. Maybe I'm lucky, maybe its perspective, but i love my job, i love my
friends, the rest is cake.

Texting will be the death of all relationships. A wise lady once told me that(she was a therapist) and I really think she's right. There's just way too much left to interpretation and also too much time for overthinking once something is digested incorrectly. I'm more hopeful than ever but I'm more scared too. I suppose all that matters in love is trust. real love with pure trust would not contain anything other than enjoyment, it just takes a while to reach that place but I fucking hope you all do. fuck, I hope I do.

Anyway, off to send a friend off to conclude 09 sun style. Sushi Dan gettin in ME BELLY asap

Did I mention Merry Swiftmas is on iTunes. C'mon! GO GET THAT SHIT! Call EVERY radio station you know! BLCers, if we're taking over the world we gotta step it up for years end,

Love,
Evan

Posted by: Evan on December 06, 2009

Soda Sunday Twenty Nine

Not to brag or anything but I'm writing this blog from my very comfortable plush leather seat aboard the Gulfstream IV we're on right now. Avril took some time away from finishing her record to come raise a bunch of money for Mexico's yearly Telethon Concert and I was honored to be a part. It's always a blast to get back on stage with her, just reminds me of all of the fun times we've had over the years. Anyway its been a crazy day, woke up at 5:30 am after finishing my newest concoction in the wee hours of the morning. went to Van Nuys airport for a 7am departure and landed in Mexico City just in time for lunch. spent most of the day soundchecking, trying to nap and enjoying explaining to the mexican starbucks barista that a "Americano" is not a decaf coffee with water in it. Anyway, we rocked the shit out of the show and got back to the jet by midnight, we're currently somewhere over mexico eating stale chips and guac. I'll be back in my warm cozy bed by 5am making it a wonderful 24hrs of insanity.

Last night, after rehearsal Av played me her entire record and all I can say is that you're going to lose your fucking mind. It's safe to say that next year is her year and I can't wait until you guys get to hear the amazing stuff she's done. One thing is for sure, she's the best singer I've ever heard, I'm just insanely proud of how good it is.

I'm shooting a video on tuesday(more on that to come later). as well as finishing some cool new movie song and getting the mixes of PP and Best Years finalized! Also, "Starbucks Girl" got the thumbs up from everyone after my latest round of tweaks so now we go record the master and the rest will be cake. I couldn't be any more relieved to be finished that song, and ironically, I think the muse herself is probably relieved(but I can only speculate).

Speaking of tomorrow's uStream I can promise you one thing. you don't wanna miss it. Not only will I perform a VERY special song but you MAY just get a surprise.... only time can tell. be there, tomorrow, 2pm PST 5PM PST--> http://tinyurl.com/etustream

Are you all feeling festive yet? I got my x-mas tree all set up, new ornaments and all! This is also the first year that I haven't been completely annoyed by my neighbors psychotically obnoxious monstrosity of a x-mas tree that towers 30 feet into the air and is viewable from all angels(even the fucking 101 dude) and instead am enjoying the buildup to my fireplace, a book, and 48 hrs sans blackberry. I dunno if I'll be in pure solitude this year(which would be a deviation from the last 3 years of x-mas for me). I'll let ya know!...

Who will you kiss on new years? start thinking now, or more importantly start planning something important you can have as a resolution and not give up on too easily. Anyway....

I've been lining up dominos for 5 years now and monday, I will flick the first, only time will tell. See you tomorrow!
Love,
Evan

Posted by: Evan on November 29, 2009

Soda Sundays Twenty Eight.

GASSSSPPPPP....

I feel like I've just BARELY gotten to the surface of the water to catch my breath before fading away into nothingness.

I mean, I love my family, I love my job, I love my friends, I love the mall(sometimes) but god fucking damn this week has been like a shot of crack topped with all the "Vacation" movies in one. I mean, in real life though there's no Randy Quaid to make it fantastic. Quick tangent, I mean Randy Quaid could be one of the most underrated comic relief actors of our times. he's a bad ass mofo

Anyway,no Quaid.

Shhh.... they're sleeping(who?) everyone. Drew is at a concert actually and the rents+annie are asleep upstairs. I've got a few minutes, seconds or hours to enjoy that sound(you hear that?????) EXACTLY! NOTHING. (god damit, the fucking washing machine just buzzed). whatever, it was nice while it lasted.

The Road looks good. I found a date for 2012 just need a date now(see what I did there... like I found someone, now I need a day to go...) god I'm so fucking clever sometimes it pains me. (I'm also so sarcastic it should pain you).

Yes I'm a shithead for needing to postpone the uStream but the truth of the matter is that i see my family SO rarely that it didn't seem ok with me to miss the like big final day in town brunch and skip all the sightseeing they want to do. I'll try my best to twit/update you all and be there in spirit. It'll only make next week THAT much better.

Anyway, I wanna take the pops to Zenga and the Moms to Anthropologie. My 19 yr old sister is somehow a infinitely better sport than my 25 yr old brother but thats another story.

Osh had no outdoor patio furniture covers which sucked and there's no way I'm entering any establishment referred to(even casually) as a mall until a week from now.

Peppone has the most ridiculous cauliflower.
Who cares about Tigers car accident?
You can never have too much turkey.

Hmm, Starbucks Girl verse re-write couldn't have gone better, have one last change, working on a movie song next, maybe a x-mas song and also PP + BY mixed this week! Off to Mexico and back non commercial and you'll be hearing from me next week hopefully well feed on fajitas and bad water! I can't really explain how I feel right now I just know 2010 is going to be a game changer. If I were a gambler I'd bet on me! and I don't mean that in some Kanye West cocky shitfuck way, I just mean like sometimes you start to see light at the end of the tunnel(and this tunnel has been about a decade long) so I'm excited.

New years, ugh. Sorry, just got stressed and anxious thinking about plans, work, what I'll be doing etc. I wish I wasn't socially broken.

I gotta call Edward and get a burning cross. Also, I think I need to hit Wacko asap. Maybe get a gift, or two.

I posted a "i get to:" this week chatting about, shit, lemme sidetrack for a second. Check the new tattoo pics, I think I was about to get mine last week when I wrote the blog! it turned out killer. Go Dana.
Anyway, I posted a "I get to:" about not feeling guilty turning down invites for things you don't need to or want to do. I just wanna revisit that here again and say that life is short friends, if you don't like certain people, if you don't trust certain people, or if you just don't care about certain people then I give you permission to stop obliging any of their existence. A long time ago some weird rule about social expectations and "yea, but its the nice thing to do" got made and its time to break it. Be happy, do whatever you want, you deserve it.

Love Evan

why is it our animal instinct to imagine the most brutal outcomes and torture yourself on them.

Posted by: Evan on November 22, 2009

Soda Sunday Twenty Seven

Lucky fucking number!! 27 (besides being my birthday, tattooed on my knee, and the greatest number ever) is also incredibly significant.

Wow, I just took like a 6 hour break from writing this and was only like 3 sentences in. Anyway., I'm stoked to go get my tattoo! I'll post pics as soon as its done and ready!

Are you all ready to get fat and stuffed with turkey? I am! my family arrives tuesay night, lucky I've got the shrink tomorrow so I'll be all fresh, prepped and happy for the invasion! This time of year always gets really stressful, strange and exciting. I'm just glad I'm 95% finished "Starbucks Girl" needed that.

I'll be writing a bunch of new songs this week, one as a pitch for a movie WBR is trying to snag the soundtrack for. The other a potential x-mas song(more deets to come soon). and lastly something young and fun for an up and comer! hmmm, what else do I got.... It's been a very very busy week, I've worked like a fucking dog all day every day to finish my album. I'm insanely excited to hear the mixed versions of "Pumpkin Pie" and "The Best Years Of Our Lives" but it won't be until dec 1st or 2nd. The its off to mexico.

Also been exploring some new exciting parts of my life during the evenings post work and lets just say that at the very least its been incredibly incredible. see, there's a place between easy and profound that exists the good stuff. some things are easier to handle, others are better for you, but you can't always have both. Wow, I'm ranting. I think its cause this starbucks via shit is amazing and I drink 30 cups of it daily.

fuck that, I'm always honest with you guys. I'm just stoked to go get my tat so I'm trying to post this blog before I do so. more importantly though my jewish guilt prevents me from just writing a shitty short one hence the adhd ranting.

I like giving advice to friends over speakerphone while shaving. somehow it makes me feel like life is good. Also, I like that I'm not the only person who gets stomach aches.

I bought a stone in santa monica that is supposed to help with the bad energy that my computer gives me, the guy was cool so he threw in a space rock that protects me(although I keep that one in the car).

I wanna see 2012 but no one will go with me & i'm almost out of incense. Nag Champa trumps almost all but Super Hit trumps Nag Champa. use a black lighter and 2 sticks of super hit for the perfect shower.

Ever spend a lot of money on something and then realize "oh fuck, I don't really need this or want this" well I did that a bunch this week. sorry, I guess I better get my record out before it all catches up with me. whatever man, I'm having fun, letting go. I mean, if there's one thing the despare of our current economy has proven its that all wealth is based on inflated and hollow fallacies so if ya got it, spend it. who knows when we'll wake up and have all our little 1s and 0s mean nothing. what no one can ever take from you is your mind, your soul, and your drive. that shit, is worth all the money in the world.

"Things may come to those who wait, but only the things left by those who hustle" -Abe Lincoln

Love,
Evan

Posted by: Evan on November 16, 2009

Soda Sundays Twenty Six

It's been quite possibly one of the most incredible weeks of my entire life. It feels like this week has been a year long, so much has happened, so much has changed. For anyone whose ever feeling down in any way shape or form just do me a favor, read my last blog's tone of semi melancholy hopelessness and this week's tone of laughing at all of it and understand that if you keep your head up things will turn around.

I made a few minor changes inside myself last week and its already changed my entire life. There are no conclusions to draw, lessons to teach, or even a complete sense of understanding where I'm at or what I'm doing but i know this: follow your heart always.

Lemme sidetrack for a moment to give you some exciting news via our wonderful ever pending record! "Pumpkin Pie" & "Best Years Of Our Lives" couldn't have gotten a better reception from Warner and are now slated to be mixed this week or next. That obviously marks a huge turning point in the completion of those songs and I couldn't be happier about how excited people are. On TOP of that I nervously sent my manager "Starbucks Girl" (he's my musical confidant) and with the exception of a lyrical tweak or two we're both feeling pretty fucking good about it. I'm gonna need to get into the studio with a proper producer for that one since it's a little out of my area of expertise production wise but I'm fairly certain that song will be #1 at some point in the near future. Lastly, dunno about which songs are definitely going and definitely staying other than "Love/Hate" is certainly not on. I'd say also that "Waiting" is most likely not gonna make the cut but whether or not "Better Than You" or "I Love The Both Of You" make it will depend on what ultimately makes the record the best. I just need to take a week and listen to everything to gain some perspective.

I've been writing poems, yes thats right. me. I've never written poetry before. I've always respected those poets who are able to make their words so emotional, so powerful that it becomes more than a poem, its more like a incredible song without music. I guess because of my lyrical self consciousness and my lack of familiarity with tons of poetry I've always gone away from it but a little muse sprinkled some fairy dust on me and I've been writing non-stop. Most of them are probably horrible, but it's felt nice to just write write write, music, poems, blogs, tidbits anything.... all without some forced notion of trying to make a hit or something, and just get shit off my chest. It's probably ironic that I found my old lyric book from right after Spinfire today. reading those lyrics(some of which were embarrassingly horrid) reminded me of what it was like to write out of pure necessity. I wrote those songs because i HAD to, the words were frantic, like cries to a good friend. And not that I've been uninspired during this record, I mean, every song means the world to me inside and out but I've definitely been on a good 6-8 month drought of real stomach churning emotion and it's nice to have it back.

I just got sobered from that high with a quick thought of reality. does that happen to you as well? like, a quick thought, something you know you'll face tomorrow hits ya and it just pushes on a button that feels bad. then it passes. whatever.

I went to new york for 2 nights on a whim. A friend of mine had never been and I had 2 days off so I said "fuck it, let's go". It was one of the more enjoyable 48hrs I've had as the doc says "you work really hard, you should enjoy it!" look, I'm not gonna start buying rolex's and caviar on my credit cards but I don't want to wait anymore for when I'm going to really start indulging in the fruits of my labors. I think everyone should do that. I never thought there was a balance, or a need for a balance, a place in between being cautious & strategic vs being directionless & avoiding reality, but ..this place, does exist, and albeit very small and particular, can be better than all of your wildest dreams combined.

It was while standing on top of 30 Rockefeller Plaza (the building they film SNL in etc...) that I was struck with a "yea, dude, this is awesome...do this kind of shit more" so I guess standby for more twitter adventures detailing my escapades to come.....

Bagels and Coffee are so much better in NYC. I don't know why, I don't want to know why, I just know its true. Walk into any corner shop, order a cup of coffee and it'll trump the best cup you'll ever get at Starbucks, Peet's & Dunkin Donuts(although Dunkin kills!)

What else. Hmm.. back to work tomorrow morning, gotta earn myself another runaway. I'll be tweeting, blogging, and nagging you all week with the updates on the album, mixing, songs etc.... The rest is cake, all good, all fun.

bla...you are perfect

It's time for me to retire to my last few hours of perfectdom before I return to reality. whether or not I'm able to get back here remains unseen but I'm actually hopeful and while cautiously optimistic I hope it's much sooner than later. It's nice in here, and damn the coffee is good.

Love,
Evan

Posted by: Evan on November 08, 2009

Soda Sunday Twenty Five

Everything changed. Everything. It was like hitting rock bottom and having a massive perception change. I wish it were that easy but it's not nearly so cut and dry. I cried for the first time in 4 years this week. Only once, but it was fucking crazy. Also, I've started realizing there's a few areas in my life that need some improvement. I mean, I'm not saying it's time to go nuts, just saying that I'm going to really make sure I'm having fun every day.

This week has been one of the most artistic in a while for me, I've been enjoying writing and record songs like never before. Lyrics have been flying out of me and I'm so inspired right now that it just feels so un forced. When you pay your bills writing music sometime's you lose that 100% pure enjoyment of the art form in exchange for the luxury of eating but this week I've found both. Ironically I think the last 2-3 things I'm working on not only feel good, but I'm pretty sure they're amazing too.

Kombucha is so good.(I like Triliogy & Citrus)

I'm 40 minutes away from the chat(though I'll probably post this afterwards) and I can already feel the negative pushing back from me changing the album around. I'm going to get into elaborate detail during the uStream but I'll say this: no one in the world, I mean no one, wants this record out more than I do. also, no one has worked harder on it than I have over the last 5 years. that being said, while at times it feels like it's a never ending drawn out debacle, I promise that there are many many many things far beyond my control that I can't combat, and that I can only do the best I can to make the best album possible for myself and you. I owe all of you for the unparalleled support and I feel very certain that I don't take for granted our wonderful family, however you have to understand that it's a true give/take relationship we've got here. I know it's annoying having to wait, I know it sucks when I change songs, but the truth is that it's all for good reason(sometime's I agree with the changes, sometime's I don't) but the end goal is to make the most amazing album possible, one that I'm infinitely proud of and also touch as many people as possible. I really feel like we're there now.

Anyway, more important that all of that is that you have to be satisfied with yourself. I've spent such a large part of my life pursuing the respect & admiration of others(ironically half the time I'm the opposite and could care less about what anyone thinks) but I'm going to start trying to appreciate what I do myself. Not to say that I'm some purist who doesn't care about societies intangible yet very real rules of status & aesthetic but at some point I know I'll finally stop caring. I'm not sure if I'll have reached some form of true internal happiness or become a self made billionaire where it really doesn't matter but I do know that either way life will be good.

It's getting cold at night, sweater time. Seems like nothing but heartbreak and loneliness this time of year right? Like, everything just always feels tragic until mid january. Hopefully I'm not alone in this sentiment. Its so weird. I almost think holidays and having your family around brings a ton of happiness, but also a ton of anxieties about conflicts. It's like, easier to deal with things on your own and not in the viewing glass of those who know you beyond your faux shell.

Me like a turtle!

All I know, up's and down's, of which there are many are all good to me because truth be told "i get to:" be here in the first place. Even on my worst day i laugh at all of it, the comedy of everything. small things, big things, south park, hip hop lyrics, awkward situations, and inappropriate jokes. that shit is worth all the money in the word.

Love,
Evan

Posted by: Evan on November 01, 2009

Soda Sundays Twenty Four

Let me post a heavy yet rhetorical question.
would you rather be the man who has all the money in the world but no friends, or all the friends in the world but no money.

I don't need your answer, I have mine.

I just find that this is the time of year always where something deep inside me starts to burn a little, or hurt a little. It's a good feeling, but it makes my stomach do knots over tiny little things that would usually just bounce right off me. I feel like once it starts to get dark out early I'm trapped for 3 months in that anticipatory feeling of waiting for your dream girl to answer you about homecoming, or going to that party to see that girl you've been thinking about all week.

November always does this, and I guess I've been working so hard the last few years that I haven't noticed as much but being home and doing mostly studio work have left me up and vulnerable. Don't worry, I'm not depressed or anything, I'm actually inspired.... just saying that whatever it is I'm feeling, I'm feeling a lot of it.

Why is it that we're not able to bottle up the love and friendships we share and put it in the bank as the real currency of life? Imagine a world where money didn't matter and you could do nothing but enjoy every moment without the anxieties of societies material realities and constants. I don't expect you have answers for these either, just thinking out loud.

the uStream was fucking awesome! I'm going to do a final rough mix on "Best Years" and "Pumpkin Pie" this week and go play it for Mr. Bossman at WBR to pick our next single. Who knows, maybe I'll just put one out without asking permission and see what happens! I mean, I'd rather be playing radio shows then sitting here during december so I may need to get crackin.

I'm looking out my window thinking of this exact time 4 years ago when I'd just moved to LA. sitting in the Oakwoods or Le Montrose wondering when I'd get an album out. I've checked so many things of my ridiculous pretend list of psychotically hysterical goals yet the main ones that seem to complete the puzzle we call life are yet to be solved. I'm thinking thats ok because who wants to beat the game without a couple attempts? I mean, I'd get too bored otherwise, its the pursuit not the finish line and all that shit....

I guess I'm just venting to you guys, because you're my family, my friends. You never realize how quiet everything is until you are alone, dead silence, no one around, no noise, no music, nothing but your deepest thoughts, and its only at that moment where you start to make some incredibly honest but scary realizations about well... everything.

with that, all I have left is to tell you
I love you,

until next week !
-Evan

Posted by: Evan on October 25, 2009

Soda Sunday Twenty Three

So what, I think I'm falling in love. I know its completely ridiculous, I'm sure i'll be over it by next week but I certainly enjoy the way it's making me feel. I barely know her name.

Anyway, this is what happens to me. I'm like impenetrable for a year or two, and I mean cold and devoid of all romantic emotions and then I'll meet someone(even unofficially) and not stop talking about it. My friends have gotten used to it and simply roll their eyes because they know within a day or two I'll be back to normal and working again(standby to find out what happens.......)

I mean, I don't want to be in love right now. (ps. I keep saying love that but I'm not that insane peope.... I just like the feeling of being slightly knocked off my game by someone). anyway, yea, its super annoying because its like I already feel hurt without even going on a date. man this shit is twisted.

anyway, let me get back to my normality of work which helps protect me from all things romantic:

"Best Years Of Our Lives" has 2 words to be sung then we're finito(well, it needs a good mix) I can proudly say its a big fat motherfucking well...big one. I'm trying not to say "it's a hit it's a hit" cause one its bad luck probably and two I just think it sounds kinda douchebag industry dude. Such hypocritical contradicting self loath this week right? wtf?

So yes, its amazing. Also, "Pumpkin Pie" is sweeter than ever(see what I did there?) and although I naively hoped it would be coming out for thanksgiving to tie in to the pumpkin pie action I'm going to have to be patient and wait until we can really set these songs up properly. The way this works btw is that I'll play them both for Tom Whalley(he's the president of Warner Bros Records) when they're finished, he'll give his suggestion to his favorite next single contender and then my brain trust and I will make a final decision and get the song to YOU so we can take over the world before I turn 95.

Speaking of Warner Bros Records, November first marks FIVE years since I've signed. Insane. I mean, it feels like just yesterday we were shooting the "Complicated" video in Eagle Rock mall(it was 7 years ago). I should take a nostalgic wander through there since it's only 20 min from my house now. I could run around and jump in the pool and re-live it. haha, how creepy would that be? I still have the outfit! dude, wow, I may have to.

Wrote a few new songs this week which was awesome, I'd be hiding from writing for myself since we wrapped the record but its been really nice to naturally get back into it just cause I'm inspired and not cause i need to write anything.

Anyway, Nag Champa definitely trumps all incense but I have to say I personally burn just as much Super Hit at home. I think I'd say i like Super Hit in the office, Nag Champa in the bedroom and Studio. My poor band and crew started getting allergies because I burn so much incense on the bus.

hmmmmm.... what else. uSTREAM live very very soon(although I think I'm going to post this RIGHT when we finish). I'm betting we broke some records today, had fun, etc etc.....Also, starting this week we'll be putting more "behind the songs" type videos up for ya. Sometime's I like to take a break from them and fill you with daily tour videos that involve little more substance than me dancing but hey, gotta keep it fresh. I'm sure you'll be very glad to get back to some actually proper video's (although I give Kim and I the academy award nomination for best flip videoing)

I wish I could paint, and take photos. I'd like to collaborate with someone who can paint these things I have in my head. I just suck at painting so bad.

Don't tell anyone but I had a bad ass Dr. Pepper, its so good.
Did you know it is said that the main secret flavor is prunes. Originally Dr. Pepper was a carbonated tonic to help elders take their prune juice. Years later they'd remove the medicinal purposes of it and just keep the soda water. I have no idea if that's remotely true or not but its interesting nonetheless. I mean south americans would get all hyper from chewing these weird little beans off a tree, eventually they'd grind em down and make them into heated soup from the ground up parts.....instead of spoons and bowls we'd eventually just use cups to drink their concoction we know as coffee.

the official histories are here however: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coffee#History & http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dr_pepper but I will say this... Wikipedia is free to all to edit, and although Michael Scott thinks that mean's "It has to be the best information" I'd trust your good ole uncle Evan before that bullshit.

I love you all
really. I mean, I'm falling in love and all, but its with you.
Evan